Oct 04, 2012 - 3:21 pm
Hi All I was diagnosed w BC in August of 2011. My 'hard' chemo was completed mid Feb, radiation 1st part of April. My year of Herceptin is over on 16 October. Port is coming out on the 26th. I am terrified of getting my hopes up that I will be free (hopefully long term).... Many think I should be so happy, so excited, celebrating. But...I can't seem to allow myself to really believe. Just about 2 months ago I had a PET scan and it came back clear; I was happy, relieved, excited and then....I had redness, heat, swelling in same breast as my lumpectomy. I had to have another biospy. I thought this is it, if its back, cancer is what will kill me. Biopsy came back negative. I know I have a lot to be thankful for and that I am blessed but..... I feel more numb than happy.