Sep 29, 2012 - 11:58 am
Yesterday I had R-CHOP chemo 6 of 8... my nerves had certainly got the best of me, and I nearly fainted in the lab.. you know, making a general fool of myself.
Well, I saw the oncologist, and he was acting funny.. just nothing felt right about our visit. He upped my chemo doses and sent me off to the infusion center. Next thing I know nurses are coming up to me saying "congratulations on your last chemo!"
It kind of blindsided me, as I thought I was supposed to have eight cycles. They asked the doc for me, and they told me he was going to stop and do a PET scan. If things were clear, no more chemo and if it's still active, moving to something different.
The oncologist never came back by to discuss this sudden change with me. Seeing the state I went in, perhaps he thought I couldn't take any more chemo? I'm not sure if he's being optimistic or just thinks he's killing me.
So, while I feel that I should be celebrating my last chemo.. here I am more confused than ever. I can't tell if my oncologist is giving up on me or what. I kinda feel like I'm being kicked out of treatment.. now I have three weeks to wait and find out anything. I kinda feel like I'm going to explode from all this pressure.. now add in the fact that I just took five prednisone pills. This sucks. I wish I had a positive message to share with you kind folks here, but I'm out for the time being!
Anyone ever have a similar experience?