I am wondering if anyone has any good suggestions for keeping positive while a family member is battling ec. Most days I am so busy looking after my 3 children under 5yrs, working my way through long to do lists and chores and routines, I don't get a chance to think about my dad until i go to bed. I take a natural sleeping aid so i am able to sleep ok.
I know we are very lucky that his ec is operable. But he has had pet and ct scans and we are getting results in the next week, then laparoscopy on 21st and surgery on 27th. I find most of the time I can function well, care for the kids (still dont have any enthusiasm for housework but never did!). But the last month or two particularly I feel like there is a cloud over my shoulders. I am not excited about Christmas, I am trying to live day by day so don't want to look ahead too far. Alot of things that i should be enjoying seem trivial and not worth it. I have finished building a lovely new house and should be enjoying decorating it but it seems so unimportant. Some days i feel really upbeat and am in denial about ec and almost forget it. The whole thing makes me feel very sad,. But most of the time I can pull up my socks and get on with it. I am guessing this is normal?
I could see my doctor. I dont think i am depressed. I think I just need to find some ways to be kind to myself and cheer myself up so i can stay positive for my dad.
I know many are going through much tougher times than me as they have lost someone already. I dont want to seem ungrateful for the time i still have with my dad - whether thats months or years. I am trying to make the most of life. I am just looking for ways to enjoy my life a bit more.
If anyone has any ideas, suggestions, books, resources, please let me know. Or should i see a counsellor or my doctor?