Sep 04, 2012 - 9:27 am
So after a really long hard weekend I had an epiphany of sorts. I am such an organized person who likes to have order and know what is coming that this situation has rocked my world. My husband and I talked a long time yesterday and I know that this is the time I have to let go and give it to God. I have to for the first time in my life really believe he will come through for me. I have to believe God will provide for us emotionally, physically and financially. I have to believe that people will want to help us and will not allow us to muddle through this crap alone. I am slowly starting to give up trying to control everything. I hate that we are going through this 3 months into our marriage, but I have decided to use this time to be with my husband and show him how much I love and adore him and also to learn to let others help. I'm not good at that at all. I have always believed if I wanted something done right (or at all a lot of times) to do it myself. Well I can't do it all right now and I have to let others help me. Let the journey begin. Thank you so much for sharing your journeys with me.