Sep 01, 2012 - 1:56 am
Hi wonderful ladies!!
I haven't posted in a while, but life has been a bit challenging lately. As y'all know, my vertebrae was fractured when I was t-boned by a semi truck that ran a red light back in May. Well, overtime my vertebrae has collapsed. It is over 50 percent collapsed and unfortunately is pinching my nerves, so I am in quite a bit of pain. We're looking into options and I have seen a neurosurgeon, but I am trying to avoid back surgery at all costs. After all, I'm a girl who loves to run all over the place and lying in bed for 3 months waiting for my spine to heal does not sound like something I want to volunatirly sign up for.
I am officially a rad grad for the 3rd time. The tumor in my leg is getting noticeably smaller, so I'm praying that it is dying and will be gone soon. Other than that, I am kind of in limbo. Do y'all ever have that weird phase where you're just waiting for the next scan and you don't really know what to do? Thats kind of how I feel. I am working my office job and taking it easy. I start my screen writing class on Tuesday and I am so stinkin nervous! You girls say lots of prayers for me that I don't fail because this is so so important to me and I don't want to totally suck.
In other news, I met a guy. It's a pretty cool story, so any of you ladies that want to live vicariously through young love, listen up :). I met a guy named Mark while I was on my cruise in Europe this summer. He is 26 and from Scotland and he was a bartender on my cruise. We really hit it off and when I came back to the states, we started emailing. Well we now email almost every day and he calls me about once a week. He invited me to be his date to his brother's wedding in Australia, so I am going! My mom and Aunt are going also, but they're going to kind of do their own vacation and I will get to hang out with him. But I'm so thankful that they are going in case I have any health problems or anything goes wrong. I am so excited to try something new. Life is too short to take things so seriously, so Im just trusting my gut and trying to be as spontaneous as possible. I want to live and enjoy my life to the fullest. Being an aspiring film student, I always think about it like this: If your life was a movie would you watch it? I want to be able to say yes to that question. I want to do things that scare me and go after what I love even with the risk of failing. This illness has taught me so much about myself and completely changed my idea of what it means to truly live.
I'm so sorry I have been kind of MIA lately. I hope you girls are doing great and I can't wait to hear how things are going for y'all. Fill me in on everything! Also, I can't thank you girls enough for all of the sweet and thoughtful cards that I have received over the past few months. You will never know how much it means to me to have a group full of incredible and inspiring women who care so much about a crazy 21 year old girl. You ladies are always in my thoughts and prayers and I am so humbled by your support and words of wisdom. I am moving into a new apartment next week, so if you want my change of address, just private message me! I leave for Australia on Oct 1st for 3 weeks and Mark comes to visit me in Oklahoma on Nov 5. We'll spend about 2 months together and then he is back on the cruise ship for 4 months. I will be sure to post lots of pictures though!!
So blessed to have each and every one of you in my life.