Aug 31, 2012 - 12:59 pm
I talked to my fathers doctor this morning. They want to implant the Therasphere’s on the 10th of September. I explained that he can hardly walk, his entire body aches and he is extremely fatigued. Not to mention the diarrhea that doesn't end. They decided to stop the Nexavar and I am taking him for blood work. Hopefully he will bounce back in time to have the procedure. They feel that it is more important to get them in at this point than to continue the chemo. The Nexavar will be restarted after the Y-90 is complete, probably one pill a day since he is only taking half of the recommended dose now.
This is just so darn hard; hard for me to watch and even worse for him to live through. The Dr.’s say that none of these treatments are for a cure; he will never be cancer free. Then why are we putting him through this. He loves long walks with my mom and their dog; he loves to fish and to camp. Those are all things that in his current state he cannot do.
So we are prolonging his life but for what? Where is the quality? At what point do you say the heck with it and LIVE. Live until the cancer does what everyone knows is inevitable?