Aug 29, 2012 - 12:07 am
Just having a rough day. I'm so restricted to doing just daily duties around the house. So frustrating. Can't even fold laundry well and I never thought that would be something I wanted to do. I have a lot of,pressure in my chest due to,the mastectomy and reconstruction and I know I'm only three weeks out but I am just so tiered of feeling like I do. I watched a love story kind of movie and it actually made me cry when the two people were getting intimate because I wonder if I will feel,like that again with my husband. Being able to feel skin against mine or feel feminine and sexy. 36 years old and I feel like i should be doing all of those things. I'm scared about my oncodx test result coming up too. I can't stop thinking about it. I think pelople around me just expect me to just get back to "normal" and I don't know what that is anymore. I don't want to be a downer but I have so much on my mind that are front and center. I just needed to vent and I don't want to make anyone around me to,feel uncomfortable because as much as they mean well I don't think anyone really knows what to,say. I'm not sure I would if I was in their shoes either. I know I'm suppose to stay positive but I sometimes need help with that. Thanks for listening to whomever. I hope I can return the favor sometime. Hugs to all.