My boyfriend of 3yrs had 3 affairs with different women during Christmas, new years & my birthday this past year (dec, & jan); admitting he never used condoms. I stayed with this man partially because I loved him & believed he would maybe change.
Last year my pap was normal. I was fine.
This year my pap was abnormal promting my gyne to do further tests;
I screened positive for HPV, then they found masses in my pelvic area during an EV, pelvic ultra sound & torso X-ray, which then they did a coclosopy & biopsy.
I screened positive for stage 4A cervical cancer. It has now spread into other areas of my pelvic region.
The feelings & emotions that run through my mind & heart were painful.
My only son is blind, & still young whom needs constant help; at home, school etc.
Now I'm sick & undergoing lots of treatments & surgeries.
This Man, doesn't ask me anything about my health, surgeries, treatments, is never there for any of it & isn't supportive at all.
Sexually, I disqust him now because my vagina is rotting, along with everything else. My hair is going, my skin is ugly, & I'm very skinny.
When it's his sex time, he lays on the bed naked waiting for oral sex & for me to hop on & it's done. Shower time.
When his cell rings or beeps, he gets nervous & ignores it. Always on his computer & our email notifications show me which adult web can site he had just registered with.
I'm sick now, & weak. I don't have family, friends to talk to. No one.
And I don't know how to tell my Son.
I have no one but my Son.
Most of you have family. I don't.