Jul 27, 2012 - 11:10 pm
Hi. I'm new to the site. I was diagnosed with anal cancer stage 2 in Jan. 2012. Went through chemo and radiation. Survived that. I still had a residual lump that I was told not to worry about. Had a colonoscopy was all clear. I then started having pain at the lump site. Dr. told me that the residual lump had split open, he recommended giving it time to heal. It's been over two months, pain is much worse, and now he thinks I need a biopsy, that its cancer and will need a colostomy. My Radiation oncologist says that he wants to get the results of the biopsy, but radiation might be a better choice. As much as I hate the idea of having a colostomy, the pain and bleeding are so bad, and the pain meds are not controling it. My surgeon is out of town until the 12th of Aug, So I don't even have a biopsy date set yet. I am miserable, I have reached a point where i am so desperate for some kind of relief I kind of just want it to end as quickly as possible. My goal for each day is just to make it through so it's one day closer to seeing the surgeon again, and I don't see how I'm going to make it. The ER isn't really and option, cause they will just tell me I need to follow up with my surgeon. Sorry if I sound like a baby, but I honestly feel hopeless. The Pain is controlling my life. any advice at all?