Jul 21, 2012 - 6:47 pm
I have been reading some of you posts, funny ones, scary ones, sad ones everything.
Keeping the tears away has become so hard. Every little thing brings me right back to my newest reality. Watching a movie, doing a puzzle nothing is helping right now.
I received the ct report yesterday, it was full of info that I had only been guessing about. I am still hopeful that the stage will be lower than I think it is. I am trying to not create trouble where there might not be any. But having been a nurse in my past life, and my just normal research type personality, I am so so scared.
The radiologist seems to believe that there are peritoneal implants. I just hope that on Tuesday, the onc does not find that to be so. The thought of it sends chills up my spine.
How do you handle the scary unknown, but probable.
Thank you all for showing me the strenght you have. I am trying to find mine right now.