Jun 24, 2012 - 6:46 pm
with anxiety the past few days, and it's not for the usual scan results, that everyone including myself gets, this is for the results of a rather extensive blood test. I'm on the 6 mos. cycle, for scans, been in remission for 2 yrs. 9 mos., and all scans have been clear. but see him every 3 mos. for physical exams, (next scan in Sept.) What really has thrown me off guard here is he has never done this before, I can only suspect his reasoning to be possible bone mets but doesn't want to say without confirmed test results. It would of been easier to tolerate mentally had he stated his reasons for it, that way one could at least mentally brace oneself for the bomb. I could be jumping the gun too which I sure hope is the case, but I just have that nagging su****ion. I see him tomorrow to hear the verdict, which I'm extremely nervous about. I've done so well throughout this journey, grateful to have made it this far, mindful of knowing things could of been worse, I guess all of us feel that same way. I guess there always comes a point where there's a new twist in the road that you would rather not take when you have this disease, (NSCLC) or any cancer for that matter. Thanks in advance for letting me vent. Best wishes to you all.