Jun 22, 2012 - 10:10 am
Ok, so I just joined a few minutes ago out of sheer desperation. I have survived Stage IIIc Ovarian Cancer having been in remission since September 18, 2011 after 6 rounds of chemo. I had a total hysterectomy, appendectomy, and omentum removed. After my surgery I was afraid to eat because I didn't want discomfort from the staples holding my abdominal skin together plus I was incredibly nervous to try and sleep at night. The sheets kept irritating my incision/staples so I'd lay in bed at night with my heart racing. Overall I lost 10lbs after my surgery.
Then the steroids hit compounding the fact that I like food. Pizza, ice cream ... comfort food. Never did I really worry about gaining weight because it came on slowly at first. Now I'm up 20lbs or about 50lbs over my ideal weight.
In January I began using the Power90 At Home Workout, monitored my food intake, basically busted my butt to get this weight under control with no results. I increased my protien, decreased carbs and fat, still no results.
My oncologist is highly reluctant to put me on HRT due to my BRCA1 positive trait and high probability of breast cancer. So he prescribed me Tamoxifen, certain that it would give me results because one of the side effects is weight loss. Been almost a month, nothing has changed.
He also recommended The Flat Belly Diet but my husband is very cynical about it and I can't make separate food for myself, my husband, and our 3.5 year old.
So I'm stuck. I'm miserable because on top of only having about 3 or so inches of dark hair (formerly looong blonde hair) I'm also fat. And MORE frustrated because it's not like I'm not TRYING.
Yes, I KNOW that I should be happy to be alive and I AM, but I also want to be HAPPY.
Aside from portion control, cardio/weights 5 times a week what the heck can I do???
Oh, and my 39th birthday is tomorrow. I had vowed to be down at least 30lbs by now. :(