Jun 20, 2012 - 11:08 pm
Well Mom, after a few years of hearing you talk about this board I finally got on here tonight and checked it out. I must say there are several inspiring ladies on here. I may be biased, but YOU are the most inspiring in my eyes. I was thinking about the letters that you have written to Ronnie, Scott and myself for when your gone. I imagine those letters to share your wisdom and to tell us how much you love us. I don't think it's fair that you don't have a letter to read over and over again to hear how much we love you. Yah, I could have said it - Yah, I could have written it, but I chose this board to do it. I'm choosing it because I want you to know that I am listening to you when you tell about these ladies. I do realize how important this board is to you. And besides that, these ladies need to know how great you are!
First...I LOVE YOU!!! I can't seem to say that enough. What is happening is tearing me up inside. I am a mess. Emotionally, Physicaly, and Mentally. And then there is you, you are the one going through it and it very rarely seems to get to you. You are so strong and amazing. I wish I was more like you in that way. I debated telling you how I actually feel about all of this. Should I pretend to be strong or not? I'm not telling you this to cause any unneeded stress on you. I read online somewhere that you should say what you feel and don't worry if it's right or wrong. I decided that if I pretend to be okay, you might think that I don't care about what's happening. Trust me, so not the case. I am crying as I type this. You are my rock. You are my...gotta call when: I have good news, bad news or crazy news. I can't handle the thought of my rock being gone one day. I LOVE YOU!!!
Second...THANK YOU!!! Wow, this could go on forever so I will try to keep it at a minimum. Thank you for being so caring. Thank you for being such an amazing single mom. You always made sure we had what ever we needed. Thank you for always listening to me. Thank you for always comforting me. Thank you for teaching me to be a great mom and thank you for sharing in that experience with me. Thank you for being you, because you shaped me into the person I am today.
Lastly...You amaze me. Everything you have been though in your life and you just keep on pushing forward. Again, another way I want to be like you. I could talk about all the memories that have made us laugh and cry but you already know them. And that, is one thing Cancer cant take from us. Our Memories!
I Love You,