Jun 17, 2012 - 12:28 pm
I had a great day yesterday. It was just what I needed. I woke up and did not really feel like starting the day because I knew I had a lot of work ahead of me. I tend to get a little ambitious with the menu when I have a party. I kissed my mom and wished her a happy birthday, then headed to the kitchen to began preparing the food.
I assigned a couple of tasks to my mom who likes to help and especially right now when she is worried about me. I worked for awhile and then took a break, sat on the patio and had a couple of cups of coffee. During the break I filled my water fountain and brought out the patio furniture cushions, I went back in and continued preparations.
My cousin was coming to help but I actually got most of it done before she arrived. We finished up as my two aunts (one is 86, the other 95) arrived. Then I asked, "Who wants a wine cooler?" My aunts, my cousin and I toasted each other. Yes, my aunts had a wine cooler. I put on lively music and the rest of the guests arrived.
My mom had a great time, she loves being the center of attention. It felt good to be surrounded by family and friends. I was in such a good mood, almost giddy (second wine cooler?) and realized I am going to handle whatever comes my way. I think I came to terms with a possible recurrence in April when my count first went up. I was upset for two days while I processed the news. I did not react that way when I got the news on Friday that it had doubled but I thought I would eventually have a meltdown.
I am remaining hopeful but realistic and have informed people I am ready to work on my bucket list again. Not in a morbid way but I want to have some fun whatever the outcome of my test.
I feel that all we have is today and we must get the most out of each moment. I learned this early on in my battle but it has been reinforced by these latest developments. It is ironically a gift one receives with this disease. Appreciation for what we have.
After everyone left I went to my bedroom to relax and my mom came in. She said I want to thank you. I want to thank you for everything you did today. It was a lot of work.