Jun 15, 2012 - 8:34 pm
My count doubled from 23 to 46 so now I will be scheduled for a ct scan. The onc told me I would have a petscan but the NP said the ct is better(?). I took it well; I wasn't really surprised. I only got emotional when I told her I hate the thought of putting family and friends "through it" again.
The onc said she's known cases where the CA 125 is 100 and there is nothing. I hope I am that lucky. But luck is not something I usually have. If I pick out lotto numbers you can be sure none will come up; I don't win pools or bets. So how the hell did I get lucky enough to win the ovarian cancer jackpot?
I thought I would totally fall apart but I came home, told my mom and we went shopping for the groceries for her 88th birthday party I am giving her tomorrow. She told my cousin I could cancel it but I don't want to curl in a ball. That has never been my style and I don't intend to start now.
I am still holding out hope. It ain't over until this chubby lady sings and I refuse even if I have to put duct tape over my mouth.
Thank God I have this place to come to. You ladies are my rock. Otherwise I would have to hold all this in. I don't want to be a dark cloud in people's lives. That is what bothers me the most.