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arlekim
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Hola a todos... Been away for a while, the usual docs appt 2-3 times a wk for X-ray, blood test, MRI's, docs making me walk, scans.. Etc, etc, etc... Well, my diagnosis is Stage 1A Endocarcinoma w/ EGRF(something like that which I'm researching) I don't need chemo or radiation as of now, tnk God for some good news. But now I'm being monitored closely b/c of the three spots I have on my right lung, which r so small that my surgeon WILL NOT remove at this time. He said " this may not even b cancer, u r getting way ahead of ur self Marcia" I responded... "but that's what my pulmunologist said about the spot in my left lung n it turned out to b cancer..!!" My surgeon says im very lycky that the cancer was found at its developing stage. I ask " how could i develope l,c if i dont smoke, never been exposed to 2hand smoke?? He said non smokers r not immuned to cancer... Now it's a waiting game.. I'm on vacation in Fl for 2 wks but the pain is still fresh as day one, my breadt feels numb, my back is in n out of cerculation my breathing isn't back to normal but the coughing has deminished a bit, can't walk to far w/o stopping to gasp for air ( there goes the shopping) n my sis has to keep turning off the AC b/c I'm constantly cold.. Have developed bad, bad, bad headaches n double vision... Go figure! One afternoon while getting ready for the pool I found a big lump on my right breast!!! Call my GYN ( a good frnd of mine) and as soon as i arrive back to NYC, she is sending me to c her frnd who's a breast surgeon to have him examined n run more test n remove the lump if needed (I'm hoping for a boob job 2.) Again, another waiting torture... That has been my story since surgery... Some of my frnds that have family member w/ cancer have said to me "u r taking this illness w/ such calmness, like u don't even think of the future, my mom ( or whom ever has cancer) has a different outcome for cancer..?" My response is. " I'm not taking this illness at all, I didn't ask for it n I sure didn't invite it to invade my body!!! So I'm not giving it a chance to survive... I can't apologize for me having a different reaction than ur mom, If I offend u w/ my reaction to it, then we shouldn't b frnds or maybe ur mom should hang w/ me...".

I might b acting wrong to my diagnosis, but I'm not being in denial, I'm just not giving it a chance to rule my life... For now that is, God is steering my life, not cancer....

Thanks u all n chat soon

Marcia

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Ex_Rock_n_Roller
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Hola right back atcha. Wow, you could comment on a dozen things in your post. How about:

(1) "I ask " how could i develope l,c if i dont smoke, never been exposed to 2hand smoke?? He said non smokers r not immuned to cancer."

Yeah, how about never smoked, fitness nut, etc.? I raise my hand. Unfortunately, if I dig deep enough, I can find about a dozen other risk factors, all of which I have. Some of us just get to be the lucky ones wherein all the little insults add up (possibly to include "bad luck.)" I'd rather not be on that team, either.

(2) "I sure didn't invite it to invade my body!!!"

The sad part: it IS our body, which is what makes it so dang hard to get rid of. I have total awe for the people who work on this stuff and make any headway at all.

(3) "I'm just not giving it a chance to rule my life"

I love your attitude. May we all maintain that outlook!

¡Qué todo le vaya bien!

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arlekim
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iPad n it's auto ..What I meant to say was "how can I have this diagnosis if I've never smoked or exposed to 2nd hand smoke...?" Gonna b honest w/, when the doc gave me the diagnosis I was ready for the answer, I already knew in my heart that I was destined to this invasion.. but I'm not gonna let it define me...

By the way, how r u doing?

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Ex_Rock_n_Roller
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... from end of treatment for NSCLC 3B coming up in July (diagosed April 2010), no identified recurrence as yet, feeling great, and not limited at all in my activities.

IOW, definitely not complaining!

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arlekim
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Im so happy for u. I wish I could learn and remember all the lingos of medical terminology, n I work w/ a surgeon...

Talk soon

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