May 30, 2012 - 8:08 pm
I just wanted to share the good news that I am now Head Teacher of my elementary school. I won't make any more money, but I feel so blessed that my boss has so much confidence in me. She has been so fantastic during this entire ordeal and decided to give me the position even though I have been gone so much.
I've been thinking a lot, and I think the way we carry ourselves through this entire ordeal has a great influence on others. I finally went to school without a hat today and the kids were so positive and unafraid. I feel like I've helped prepare them for when they have to deal with this as a fighter, friend, or caregiver. One little girl is doing her project on chemotherapy now and asked if she could interview me. Who knows, maybe she will continue to be interested and solve this horrible puzzle
I am feeling so much better since completing chemo, but feel anxious because radiation is right around the corner. They are radiating a much larger area than I anticipated because one pelvic and one aortic lymph node lit up during a PET before chemo. I also know it's bad news if there was cancer in the aortic, which I also know there probably was. Does anyone know anything about SUVmax values? Just curious. I'm driving myself nuts researching all this stuff when I should just be happy that whatever was glowing is gone. I think I'm hitting that "every day is a blessing" stage. It took me awhile to get here, but it's beautiful.
I had my first colonoscopy and endoblahblahblah since I am high risk for GI cancer, all is well there, so thankful.
I pray for each of you every night, please continue to be strong and thank you for sharing your journey.