May 06, 2012 - 5:58 am
since I have last really posted and I am sorry I don't want you to think that I don't care things got bad here for a little bit, and really I have so much trouble with this site not staying concectted but I do love all of you ladies. I told you there has beeen some problems here well there has been, I have not felt well and the ER never could fined anthing I just knew something was not right. My numbers kept rising and they just did not know. I have been waiting for a petscan most of you know all the problems I have been having with that, well my dotor office called and needed me to come in so Thursday I went back in and found out the cancer is back I am goin g to be put on a trial drug called AMG 386 (I think I got that right) and a low dose of taxol, I am so not looking forward to that because I will lose my hair again and my understanding is I am going to be on this for life. So that is what I am going threw I know everthing that I am heading into but for some reasone I am just a bondle of nervers and just wish I did not have ancer. I am so done with having cancer that I just want to pull my hair out but I guess I don't have do the drug will do that for me :), Hey I don't have to pay for hair cuts, dying, and perms anymore (it is a wonder I have not lost it befor lol). I guess that is what is on my mind I will talk with you all later.