Apr 26, 2012 - 1:44 pm
I feel bad posting as we don't even know what exactly is going on yet and I know most here are actively going through stuff. Short version (longer version on the breast cancer boards) Parnter found a lump, went to the doc who said yeah not normal, diag. mammography tomorrow. Her mom is a 6 year survivor, double mas. and chemo (not sure about radiation). Just noticed it maybe 3 weeks ago now, but now you can feel it through her shirt without even pressing down (granted she is like a size A but just barely, very flat chested so don't know if this makes a hige difference). None of her family knows, I told my mom. I try not to complain in general in life but am tired of trying to find someone to vent to only to have them dive into what is wrong in their lives after saying "that sucks". I could scream at this point.
I am pissed because we should be planning our weekend camping trips in the mountains right now... not sitting here worried and not wanting anything to be wrong. We both worry quietly to ourselves not wanting to worry the other. I think she has more of the approach of "lets worry once we know" but I can't turn my brain off. I keep thinking of the house, the animals, and god forbid soemthing happening to her. I don't know how to shut my brain off. Ok, rant over...