Apr 24, 2012 - 6:38 pm
I just got my latest CA 125 result and it is 23. The last one was 8 and before that 5. Up until then it had always decreased or stayed the same. I am scared out of my wits. I know less than 35 is considered within range but that is not keeping me from freaking out. I left word for my oncologist to call me.
I have been in remission for 18 months. I have been upbeat about everything but always in the back of my mind is the concern of recurrence. My onc/surgeon said if it never comes back you are cured but if it comes back once it is treatable.
I feel like I have been holding my breath for 18 months. I feel great and am trying to eat healthy and exercise. But in the back of my mind is always the fact that if it comes back it will kill me.
I apologize to all of you who are in the thick of it. But I am sure you will all understand the terror I feel at the prospect of recurrence. Right now I can't stop crying. So many thoughts are going through my mind. I don't want to overreact but this is all such a crap shoot.
I know the doctor will just try to reassure me as they have before but it will be much more difficult for me to relax with this number. I thought I had read on here that if it is a recurrence, the number would shoot way up but why is it trending upward?
I thank you as always for your support.