Apr 13, 2012 - 12:54 am
I cant believe it has been three months since surgery! I am totally back to normal now. Can eat, drink, work out, and function fine. This day seemed so far away after surgery. I still have pain in my kidney, dull pain that rotates from front to back and aches. Guess its something I will have to live with. I do think that it gets a bit worse the day after drinking a few too many beers and vodka tonics. Will definitely be keeping that to one or two, not 4 or 5. Still a bit tired, just seems to be more fatigued then I remember.
The funny thing is I feel like I am a totally different person mentally. My focus is to be happy, worry free and not stress about things. It was a miracle I found the tumor and cancer, so every day I am here is amazing. It is so hard for people to understand that. So many just seem to act like nothing happened, or that I am just being silly for thinking that way. For instance I have this work licensing training that is horrible coming up. Fail rate is damn near 90% for the series 6/ 63/ and life insurance exam. Day two back at work they tell me I am going, and have been trying to pressure the crap out of me to pass. I just don't care, so what if I fail, its life. I dont want to spend my every waking moment worrying and missing my life. No one gets that! I was so worked up today that I cried after missing two problems on an unrelated work training quiz! And I swear when I stress out or get emotional my kidney gets mad at me and starts to throb.
Well that is my update so far. Will be heading into the urologist on May one to do the post op follow up. Also will be getting my results to the VHL gene soon.
Anyone know where to get some kick ass survivor gear?? Like cool shirts and stuff?