I'm Rebecca, and i'm 17 years old from Canada.
In feburary, my Dad who is 53 years old was diagnosed with stage 3 esophogeal cancer. It has spread to lymph nodes, is in the aorta(spelling?) and is rather close to the kidneys. He has a PEG tube for feeding, and a PICC line for chemotherapy. He has had brachytherapy treatment and just last week he started chemotherapy. He is getting CISPLATIN. My dad has always had issues emotionally but recently he has become quite deppressed and is talking about suicide often. I feel like i cant leave him alone. My dad lives alone in an apartment, and when he started chemo, he had a lot of issues. I basically moved in with him for the last two weeks. He couldn't leave his bed for 6 days (other than stumbling to the washroom) and i had to give him 8oz. of water an hour, as well as ondansetron and gravol and morphine given at different times of the day. I am having problems copeing because he is constantly mad at me for something. My mom tells me that this is normal for cancer patients but i feel really frusterated, and its hard to just ignore it and be happy. He is now by himself while i am at school for the first time in a week and a half, and i'm quite scared about if he is taking care of himself. Soon though, my mom and dad are actually getting back together! He will be moving in with us within the next few weeks, before his next dose of chemo. Surgury will hopeeeeeeeefully be happening in the late summer. My dad is just starting to be able to drink slowly for the first time in nearly 2 months. Great news! hopefully this means that it is working.
Anyway, felt good to get that off of my chest because i can't seem to focus in class at all. I'm so exsausted and stressed i'm worried that i might be having some depression issues myself. Oh you may be wondering if i have sibilings. Yeah. a sister. shes 27. and where was she this whole time? One floor up from my dad in the appartment. Did she once come see him? Nope. I don't get it. Any feedback welcome.