Apr 11, 2012 - 2:02 pm
I finished my 2nd round of Taxol/Carbo on Monday. Today I just feel really crummy.It hit me on the 3rd day after my 1st treatment, too,and I guess that's pretty typical. It's hard to describe how you feel to someone who's never had Chemo so when I say I just feel bad, they have no idea what I'm talking about. I'm not throwing up so I must not be too bad, right? I wonder if you ever just get used to feeling this way. I'm not sure how the ladies who have it every week or for long periods of time can get through it. I know we do it because we have no choice but it's still hard. I pray a lot but at times it's even hard to do that. I was supposed to go on a business trip out of town with my husband today but when I woke up this morning I told him that I just felt too bad to go. So I'm sitting here alone and kind of feeling sorry for myself I guess. The weather has been really nice and sunny but today it's grey and rainy so that doesn't help either. I was told that it's ok to vent and share your feelings on here so that's what I'm doing today.
Sometimes it seems like my life will never be the same after all this. I wonder if I'll ever be normal or like myself again. I'm sure that some of you have felt that way, too.