Apr 08, 2012 - 10:02 am
I am taking Endone, which is a morphine based pain reliever, and have also been prescribed Morphine in a liquid form. My pain is pretty bad without the pain relief, I am really having excruciating pain swallowing at the moment and the constant pain at the site of the tumor is also a constant severe pain. I haven't taken the liquid morphine yet, but the surgeon prescribed it for me when I saw him last Wednesday. I intend to take it tomorrow, for the first dose in the morning as it should not cause me as much pain being liquid, and then use the Endone if I get breakthrough pain. This is all ok with my surgeon.
My question is that it is wonderful to have the pain relief, but I am worried about addiction. At the moment I really do need the pain relief and it is effective, but as I am not due for surgery for another week, feel I really need this. I have found that I really am unable to eat properly now, my tumor is located where the esophagus meets the stomach, and developed in the glands there. I also was told last Saturday that it is in my adrenal glands as well. Both tumors will be removed at the time of the operation. He intends to take about 10cm of my esophagus and about half of my stomach. He will then reattach them and he believe there should not be any problems with this. He has done a few of these procedures and I do have faith in him.
Another question I have is that since starting these morphine based drugs, I am able to manage the stress extremely well. Is this an added effect from the drugs. I do not get any weird feelings, but find I am quite accepting to everything, quite euphoric actually. My cognitive abilities do not appear to be affected.
Another issue I did not anticipate is my daughter, 22 years old,who is not handling all this very well. She is very angry with me, I realize this is a process of grief, but when she is being rude to me I am just calmly taking it and reasoning with her. She works a long way away as a Special Education Teacher and has just begun her career. She will be with me all week so I am involving her this week with doctors appointments, so hopefully this may pass as she learns more and becomes involved personally with my doctors. I hope so, as it is painful to see what she is gong through, but also I really don't need the arguments and abuse at the moment. This is so unlike her, and we have had a very close and loving relationship, so this reaction is stressful to both of us. I know we will get through this, but it will take a lot of patience on my behalf.
Any help with the issue of the pain meds and with my daughter would be greatly appreciated.