It's been a while since visiting this site. I just celebrated my birthday without my sweet husband. I guess I survived it but missed him terribly. I had come across the last B-day card that he gave me last year. I don't even know why I saved it and put it where I would find it this year. Lots of weird things happening.
This weekend will be the "first" Easter without him. I keep thinking about all the holidays that he worked sooo hard and wasn't able to enjoy them because he was so tired.. then when he finally ends up staying home and can enjoy he's sick with cancer!!! and is tired or doesn't feel good or can't eat!!
At the end of the month we would be celebrating our 40th Wedding Anniversary. I have chosen to celebrate by participating in a Relay for Life right near our house on what would be our anniversary. That's the best way I can honor my husband.
I don't know how I will ever get over this but try to make him proud of me and how I am handling this horrible loss!