Apr 04, 2012 - 12:22 pm
My mother passed away five days ago. The funeral was organized two days ago. My mother had cervical cancer with metastasis changes on her lungs. She survived almost 5 years. My only comfort is that she didn't have some exaggerating suffer at the end. I think that she had a quality life during this period. She had a great support from my father and, especially, from me. But, SHE WAS OUR GREAT SUPPORTER. My mother and I did not have secrets - we openly talked about her disease and we were never discouraged. Unfortunately, the massive infiltration of malignant cells in her bloodstream caused her death.
I am so sad. I miss her touch. I miss conversation with her. It is very painful to accept the fact that she is not with me. I miss her support. I miss her physical existence. It is so hard. I was brave during this funeral period and I am sure that she would be proud on me how I made all these bureaucratic things connected to the funeral. But, I feel deep pain inside of me. I feel deep emptiness inside of me. I miss her love.
I need support and that is the reason for logging in this site. I do not want to discourage any actual cancer survivors with my story - my mother proved me that it is possible to live longer than statistics say and that is possible to live with cancer in more or less quality way.
My mother was a hero. Mom, I love you and I will always love you!
(p.s. I am not a native speaker of English so excuse me for any grammar mistake.)