Apr 03, 2012 - 4:28 pm
Some days, I just get so mad that this cancer happened to me... and my husband's cancer has come back... I get so ticked off! I don't like not being in control... and let's face it, cancer doesn't discriminate, so we just never know. I hate not being able to do what I used to.. and to walk like a penguin, and everything else that has changed; especially, my inability to do my job (federal investigator), which I enjoyed so much. Now, I can't predict when I will have the bowel movements, or gas, which I rarely had before all this, and the inability to stand for more than a few minutes without holding onto something, and the stiffness after sitting after only 5 minutes, etc, etc, etc! Can you imagine being in an interview with some high ranking someone or other, then having to excuse yourself for about a 20 minute diarhea excursion??? Sorry, if i offend anyone... It is just one of those days for me. I hate cancer, and everything that it does to its victims and their families! Continued good health and an easy journey to all. God bless.