Mar 31, 2012 - 1:41 am
I probably am about to describe a scenario that you are all familiar with. I went yesterday morning for a gastronomy because I was having trouble swallowing and a constant pain just below my ribs, where I felt my Esophagus met my stomach. I have a history of GERD and a Hiatus Hernia. All was progressing smoothly until in recovery the Gastroenterologist came and saw me and told me that it was serious, that there was a growth. He then set up for me to have a CT Scan that afternoon, the contrast one, with both the drink and the intravenous fluid.
He rang me after the scan and told me that he was pretty certain that it was Cancer and that I would get the results of my biopsy on Tuesday. He told me that my liver and local lymph nodes were clear.
WHAT THE HELL, where do I go from here. I am determined that this is going to be 'fixed', I also spoke to my GP who said I would be due for an operation and he did explain a few things to me but basically was calm, but also in shock.
The problem is that I have heart disease, cardiomyopathy. Luckily I am bionic, I have a biventricular/pacer with an ICD inserted and my heart health is pretty good at the moment. So hopefully I will be physically fit enough to have any procedure that is required. I am still trying to come to terms with this, but am comforted by the fact that he has already checked for any spread, which has come back negative.
Any support or sharing that anyone is willing to give me is very welcome. I am a fighter, I have had cardiomyopathy since I was 45, was given 5 years to live then, but now 13 years later am still here, and I am going to go out kicking and fighting. I will not let this get me too down, I am realistic and have lived with illness for over a decade now, but I am still going to give this everything that I have. I have too many friends and loved ones to give up, so please give me your advice.