Mar 29, 2012 - 7:36 pm
This is the first month that I have gone since being diagnosed that I have not had that positive reinforcement that I am still clean. I have not had any lumps or bumps and have been feeling really well, besides being tired from all my school work! I am at college and away from home and have been finding myself very anxious. I cant help but think "WHAT IF".
I also often worry about my parents. They have done so much for me and we are very close knit. I know that this took a toll on them and I always wonder how they are really doing, not just the act they put on over the phone. 2 months before the finding of my Lymphoma my father was having complication which the doctors thought was Lymphoma. After testing his disease ended up being sarcoid and I know that he feels "guilty" that it was me not him. While I know I can talk to them about anything sometimes I make up different excuses to head home for the weekend so they don't worry about me!
I have been told and understand that this is completely normal. Almost all cancer patients have that what if question in the back of their mind. I was wondering if anyone had any helpful hint for overcoming these fears?
I wish everyone well!