Mar 11, 2012 - 12:41 pm
I'm newly diagnosed and have already had surgery for colorectal cancer. My mom is here helping my husband take care of me and the house. I've been home or two weeks after surgery and this coming week, I meet with oncology for the first time.
Ever since I got home from the hospital, I've been really bored. I try to keep busy but I don't sleep well and the days are very long it seems. I'm also depressed.
I need some variety in my life but since I can't drive yet, I rely on my husband and he refuses to take me places without a fight. I understand that he's tired but he also seems to resent it when friends offer to take me out, even when they include him in the plans and he refuses to ask for help when we need it as well.
He thinks that I should go to church on Sundays ( was not doing so pre surgery) and that's it. I feel like he is trying to isolate me and if I resist, he gets very angry....I in turn feel that I have the right to self determination and get angry as well.
All this anger is making me sick. I had gotten my appetite back but lost it again from this stress. I know he loves me but I don't feel supported...as things get tougher during chemo, we to be on the same side. I don't know where to even begin talking about this without starting a fight.
We are both new to cancer...never dreamed either of us coukd get this sick and are learning how to cope slowly....I guess I need advise on how to break the ice here.....