Feb 22, 2012 - 7:18 am
I came here looking for answers and looking for hope when I found out my mom had stage 4 lung cancer. I sadly lost my mother in her fight to cancer and I am struggling, I only found out about the cancer at the begining of December and she passed away the day after new years. One thing I have learned from all of this is that life is so short and so precious and not to take things for granted but my grief is stopping me from doing anything, getting dressed in the mornings or even getting out of bed is a chore, Not good when you have a 2 year old and a 3 month old to take care of. My girls have started to pick up on my grief and the last thing I want is to feel this way, my mom would have wanted me to live my life to the fulliest but I miss her so much I just don't know what to do. I just want to hear her voice one last time. I live in a different country than she did and when she found out about the cancer the doctors told her she wouldn't make it till January and she still flew to be with me and see her new Granddaughter. I was so blessed to have that time with her but because of that time with her it just makes me sad, I was heavily pregnant and hormonal and all I did was complain about little things, I didn't know about the cancer, she looked tired not as if she was dying. So I'm getting a little off of the point here, How do you get passed the grief? I've never lost anyone I was so close to, I feel as though a piece of me is gone. I need to get passed this for my girls they deserve to have a happy mother, not this moody grumpy one I've been, I don't think my littlest one has seen me happy yet!