Feb 02, 2012 - 9:14 am
Has been a bit since I last posted. Seems like the last couple months I have been stuck on a rollercoaster. See a doc.... do a biopsy or test..wait a week get results, you have anal cancer insitu....see another doc...have another test or biopsy...wait a week get results, yep insitu.... tumor board to review case...wait a week, you need a pelvic MRI... have the test...wait a week get results, MRI shows invasion into 2 muscles you need to start treatment...appt made with oncologist in yep 1 week which is next Tuesday. GOOD news,BAD news, wait...wait...wait.... Do they have any idea the amount of stress that a person has to feel during this process? Some more than others, maybe some not at all. I have stopped telling family and friends anything. I tell them I have cancer and I see the tears come... I then tell them they say its INSITU!!! I watch as relief floods their faces.. I am not going to put anyone else I love through what I am having to experience first hand. I am frustrated and at times pissed off inside, but most days I am the same ole smiling Randy they know. The one consistent thing in all of this is the amount of support I have gotten from my loved ones and friends and the strength I know God is feeding me.