Jan 28, 2012 - 11:26 pm
Hello. My name is Julia and I am new to this site. On December 1st at 6:30 I lost my mom to leukemia. My mom had gone through a lot and it was so hard to watch her deteriorate before my eyes. She was diagnosed in March and the doctors all said that because shewas 50 that she had a really good chance on fighting and winning. So we all went on with a clinical trial, which worked, and right before her transplant she went into remission. However she underwent a bone marrow transplant and things seemed to be taking well. She was in the hospital a month and finally got to come home. That was short lived bc she was home for 2 weeks before a complication from the transplant happened. It was always one thing after another and she never came home after that except for the 4 days she came home with hospice before she passed. She died in our living room surrounded by her family. It wasnt even a year that she found out she was sick to when she died. It was and still is the hardest time of my life. I go to classes each day looking happy and just trying to get through everyday but I hate having to act okay. My friends dont seem to care. My dad and I argue more than we ever did and all my family lives outta state. I dont know how to cope and accept what has happened. I come home everyday expecting her to be here still. I dont know who to talk to because no ones knows what its like to feel this kind of pain.