Lately I have been overwhelmed. I just don't know what to do. My husband can be sooo mean. Sometimes I just want to do something like run away. I love him but sometimes I feel so abused. He can be mean, thinks he knows it all. I am just venting and I feel bad for saying it. Sometimes I feel like I am being punished. Been doing this thing 3 years now. He totally depends on me, but there are days he will have me buy something to eat, only not to eat it. Same way if I cook. He fusses at me. He goes days not saying a word to me. He is equally mean to our son. I know people say it's the med, or you need to understand how he feels...blah, blah. I know that one day I may regret this, but I am tired. I wait on him hand and foot. NO ONE, I mean NO ONE understands. NO oNe is here to help. Family has just gone away...So sad. This whole things sucks! I lost my mom to this dreadful disease. My husband is drugged most days and the days he is not he fusses. I know it is hard on him. I talked to him, and he says he will stop, but it gets worse. Although I know the reasons, I am trying to be tough and suck it up, but it is weighing me down.