Jan 10, 2012 - 9:01 pm
I miss her so deeply my insides ache. I was with her when she took her last breathe and I wiped away her last tear. I had told her she would be ok everytime my momma asked me. A lie to comfort her. My mom suffered immensely from stage 4 thyroid cancer that metastasized to her bones then lungs. I feel completely numb inside and wonder how I'm functioning. I want to see her in my dreams for her to tell me she is truly in paradise. My poor dad lost his soulmate. Slept at the hospital until her final breathe. People say remember the good times but my head pictures the worst times. I don't feel at peace with her death how can I ? She meant the world to me. I'm 41 and I feel like a little girl crying for her mommy. Is there another word than sad because I am beyond that.
I miss you momma I love you. I miss your smile, your hugs, your calls. I miss everything about you. I tried my best to make you better by harassing and begging the doctors. You left to find peace from it all please tell me you are ok .