Jan 04, 2012 - 1:42 pm
Feeling a little invisable to my husband lately... he had the embolization a week ago and has been very tired since. I totally understand that but when he is up he doesn't seem to see me and others take priority. I am feeling alone and lonely, missing the man that loved me so much. Last night as I layed in bed I couldn't help but think I haven't seen him since Feb. 1st 2011 (day of diagnoses), I am fighing so hard to keep someone that is already left. He gives his energy and smiles to others and saves his tears and weak moments for me. For better or worse, in sickness and health and I intend to keep that promise but I can't deny how hard it is. I want nothing more than to take care of him but this is killing me. He can go all day without seeing me until he needs his ostomy changed, if I am not right there to change it he acts like I have a lot of nerve to have something else going on. I change it and he is gone again. Did he forget me? I feel ridiculous saying these things but it is the way I feel.