Jan 02, 2012 - 9:47 pm
Well, last time we were at the doctors, we actually got good news. The tumors are shrinking and the natural treatments that we have been trying seem to be improving the symptoms, as well as the progression.
The bad news is that emotionally, I am completely and totally drained. The months of being sick, chemo, losing my hair, and constant mental, physical, and financial stress have made me feel like a little of an empty shell. I so desperately want my life back, and even just the indication that I am getting better finally and that I may beat this thing, instead of serving to encourage me, just made me impatient and more frustrated.
I know it sounds strange, but it's the weirdest feeling. I can't even enjoy this piece of good news. Instead it's made me more frustrated, more impatient, and I don't even want to hear the word "cancer". I just want to forget that this ever happened to me!
Anyone else ever felt this way? Especially after getting good news. I feel guilty for not being happier and for having these feelings.