I cannot believe I am typing this, it still doesn't feel real.
Last Tuesday evening mum was taken into hospital , she died on Wednesday night. She had caught pneumonia and just could not fight it off.
It has been he'll. In the hospital they asked mum if she wanted to be resuscitated ,she Said yes, it was as much as she could do to say yes.10 minuets later the doc came in for a word, took us out of the room and said it was a pointless to resuscitate her , it was awful , I wanted to go with her wishes , but as the docs said it would be awful to watch and pointless.
At 7.40 Tuesday she slipped away so peacefully, all of her children with her.Catherine , j and I were deciding who should go home , so we could do shifts, I had just said to my sister shall we tell her it's ok to let go. Looked around 30 seconds later she was gone. It was almost like she made the tough decision for us, Like mums do they always think of there children.
I just cannot believe this has happened, I knew it was in the post, but just not this quickly. Poor mum she was so poorly for those last 24 hours, she didn't look like my mum, but she kept smiling as we spoke to her and as I Was telling her to fight she kept squeezing my hand
I am so pissed off this ***** has robbed her of Xmas and turning 70 on Xmas day.
But I can take this from her death......cancer can no longer frighten her or us any longer and for that I am grateful.
She had no remission and constant ascites that needed to be drained , she never once complained.
My mum is a hero and an inspiration.
I will miss her so much , where am going to go when I am in the s**t? She always knew what to do.