Hello my friends.....thank you all so much for your thoughts, prayers, & input while I've been dealing with the 'uncertainty' of my next steps on this journey.
Have any of you seen the tv movie "The Heart of Christmas"? I recorded it & watched a few times (crying each time!). Its a true story about a little boy diagnosed with lukemia. His mom blogged about the progress, etc. (kind of like we do here!). Basically the show was saying to cherish time with family & friends. Life is too short for 'worries & what-ifs'.
Yes of course I want more time with my family....my grandkids! And I'm willing to do what I need to in order to accomplish this.
So although I'm still anxious scared nervous.....all those crazy emotions! I will be doing the APR surgery. I did meet with an ostomy nurse & a lady who's had an ostomy for 8 yrs. It brought so much light to all our questions. I'm done being a hermit & slave to the bath rm! And I really don't want to see my dr every 3 months for biops, dx, etc. We all know how much fun the dr can be don't we! heehee
Yes it will be 'life changing'....but one can adapt in time. My cancer center is so supportive along with our insurance company which has nurses we can call any time. I am so ready to enjoy life, travel again....& I'm sure my hubby is too!! (its hard to even go out to dinner) So the surgery date will be Feb. 2, 2012. And its on Ground Hog's Day imagine that!!?? haha!!