Dec 11, 2011 - 6:28 pm
When my son and I were talking the other day he informed me that he doesn't think it is a good idea for me to continue coming to this board. He says now that I am "good" it can only bring me down to read about others who are still in the battle or lose the fight. I tried to explain that we share everything on this board; the good the bad and the ugly.
I know he doesn't want me to even think about cancer while I am in remission. I don't think I can get him to understand how my life is forever changed. True I don't want to be defined by cancer but it is a fact of my life.
I told him it amazes me since I am such a worrywart that I can go on living each day knowing there is a chance for recurrence but not letting that interfere with my joy at being healthy and well. But of course I remain mindful that it may recur.
If I were a recovering alcoholic I would not stop attending AA meetings once I was sober. Or shouldn't. I am a weight watcher. I achieved lifetime status many years ago when I reached my goal. I gained the weight back and am currently attending meetings; trying to get back to goal. Weight Watcher's urges members to keep attending even after they reach their goal. Why? For continued support, of course.
I know my son would like to pretend none of this ever happened and will not happen again. Neither of us have that luxury but I feel cancer will become the elephant in the room if we cannot talk about it. But once again that is the value of this board. I know I can talk to all of you, like I am doing right now.
Thanks and love.