Cancer Survivors Network

Okay-family of 7-We are mean to each other So I moved to Florida-Love my life-And last time I visited my mom I had my sisters jump me-Kept my mouth shut-Till I could not take it anymore-Just wanted to come home-Now Mom has Kidney cancer-It Kidney cancer took my husband 2 years ago. So I talked to friends and posted on face book and again I got blasted-They say I am part of the family-But when we discussed a trip for all of us to NY with Mom in September come last weekend No one told me-Till 2 days before and it was not hey u want to go it was us three girls are taking Mom to Ny And our sister in law could not go. At least she was asked.Then we get the news that they are doing surgery-And MY sister-other one tells me how I play the victim and how dare I speak to anyone about my mother. I get there scared-I know this disease all to well-But they have made me feel so unwanted and scared to go home. My mother does not need all of us fighting and bickering while she recoups. But now she is offering to by me a ticket. Up the day before surgery then home a few days later. How do I tell her thank you-But no thank you. I did not tell her that my sisters and I are fighting but someone has-Otherwise she would be fine with me here for her surgery. what should I do should I go or should I stay. Save myself or sacrifice my emotional state to please my sisters UGGG!Pretend and have a nervous breakdown-For I almost did last time I was there-So what to do-Please give me your opinions all sides-I know it will be my decision-but has anyone gone through the same