Dec 02, 2011 - 12:09 am
I lost my husband on November 14th, 2011 at 11:32 am (Monday) from Advanced Stage IV lung cancer with mets all along his aorta. I was there when he passed. To me he passed in a bad way. We did get to say our "I love you's" but he was suffering. I miss him so much. I know it has only been a few weeks but this really sucks. I am so alone. I wish this all was a bad dream. I write a journal daily on how much I love him and miss him but it is not him...I want him. All I do is cry anymore. Even though we were only married for 6 years it is the best 6 years of my life. I can't believe he is really gone. This really hurts. He took a piece of me and I won't get it back until we meet again. Why can't people understand that I don't "want to deal" with life right now. I hurt and I don't care. I am just alone and I hate it. I love my Markie, always have and always will!!! I can't wait to meet him again in heaven but until that day I will mourn for him!!!
Thanks for letting me vent!