Nov 22, 2011 - 8:59 am
I'm loosing the Only reason I have lived a life of trying to do the right thing. For as long as I can remember when growing up I didn't care much about anybody or anything.
Material things, money, the American dream...pffffftt, no desire for any of it. Didn't care about life in general.
She made me care, but all my caring is slipping away with her.
It's bad enough to watch a loved one deteriorate physically, but the diminishing mental ability just makes me angry as hell. When she looks at me with "I don't know whats happening" face or expression I want to scream and just tear something apart. My world is being destroyed and nothing will stop it.
I'm loosing my very heart.
Back to the cynic that didn't and won't care again after she's gone.