Oct 27, 2011 - 4:08 pm
My mom was diagnosed with Renal Cell Carcinoma 9/98 at 41. She was given 4 months to live and had surgery (can't remember if they removed it completely or not) apparently at diagnosis she had lung mets (she didn't tell us this, we were 23 and 21) she also had to go to the hospital an hour away for Chemo treatments 3x a week. I quit my job and drove her and worked nights as a hostess at a restaurant nights and my sister took care of her while I was at work. Few days after Xmas she went to the ER and was admitted to the hospital after finding Mets on her brain (guess that explained why she would stare at me and not answer when I asked her a question and why she was so forgetful at work) She never left the hospital, she passed away the morning after her 42nd bday on 1.7.99. I live in fear everyday that I will get Cancer and die, and as I get older (36 now) I fear that I am close to the age she was when she died. Her father, my grandfather spent a year sick and died from Head/Neck Cancer, My ex MIL died last year after a 4 mo battle with Melanoma at 57 (just days after her bday) there are lots of other Cancer stories in my family tree of distant relatives. How do I get over this daily fear of not IF I get cancer, but WHEN?