Oct 15, 2011 - 4:03 pm
I realize it is the time to begin to heal now that treatments are over but I can't seem to feel better emotionally. We start for home tomorrow and it is 14 hrs. We plan to take as many days as it takes to not be terribly miserable. Trying to plan (ha!!) for potty breaks, not gonna use those rest stops if I can help it. I read about a female urinal some where on this sight and bought one of those, lots of female wipes, even a few depends. Hope I do not need them. Scared of germs. Scared of not healing. Scared I will come back in January and the Doctor will say "sorry, the alien tumor did nt leave. We will try surgery and a "bag".
Always a little or a lot nauseated. Still feel like an upside down volcano erupting lava ..... I think I scared one of my friends off, she can't bear the stress and it is because she cares about me......at least I think so...
When do we give up???!!!