Oct 08, 2011 - 5:47 pm
Last time I wrote this was on September 20th and just to let you all know...things are the same. No worse....No better...Okay I have to admit maybe he is experiencing a bit more pain. Eating a bit more less (I know that statement is an oxymoron). And a little bit harder to wake up sometimes. Having a little bit of a hard time with walking. Having a bit of confusion but all in all he is the same. This cancer is eating away at him very, very slowly. I don't like to see him suffer in pain anymore but I do try to keep him as comfortable as possible. Okay so he is taking a bit more morphine since I last typed about him. I have a book where I keep records of the times and dosage and even what he does (doesn't) eat but that is because we have to notate his blood sugar levels being a diabetic. Last time I typed (9/20/11) he was taking up to 6-7 doses of morphine per day (2 ml/20 mg). Now he is up to 10 doses per day. Like I said before, everything is progressing "a little bit". He may have a break with the morphine at night for about 5-6 hours because I am finally able to go to bed after a long day. I do however take naps when he does so no worries on the caregiver taking care. I am! I just can't do the sleeping he does or I would never get anything done! His daily first doses start at 4-5 am and the end day dose is usually 10-11 pm.
I am however, enjoying my time with my husband! Love every waking moment with him. We talk when I give him his morphine but then I leave him alone knowing I will talk to him again in two hours. Also in the am (breakfast) and pm (dinner) I let him know what time (if it is not on his dosing schedule) I will be in to take his blood sugar, have him take his insulin, etc. And I love our little talks. As a couple before we never really talked (expressed ourselves to one another) so even though they are little talks I completely enjoy them as does he.
Thank you for listening!