Oct 01, 2011 - 10:57 pm
Last few days even a week, I have these weird feelings, sometimes I feel like my cancer has come back and sometimes I feel like Im not going to be able to deal with it. Im now only going on 3 months remission and it happened before, I was in remission for this long and it came back. This time i worry if it comes back I wont' be able to fight it anymore. I fought twice why do I have to keep fighting, why? Why can't this go away, it's already left it's ugly side effects on me, scar tissue, erosions in stomach. I dont' want this anymore, I am now on liquid diet due to build up in stomach makes me think maybe i now have stomach cancer. I had my check up few weeks ago, and he felt me and it was fine, said i looked good and wants to see me in December...........Im frustrated dont' know what to do, am doing what my GP is saying about build up in stomach and still not 100% better.