Sep 23, 2011 - 6:30 pm
My finacee has decided that he will not have any more chemo, even if it might be his best chance. He had a terrible and very long first round of chemo and it was so hard on him and I know he felt more terrible than I could ever know, especially because the cancer clinic would not prescribe any nausea or pain meds because we are too poor.
I don't want to lose him. dear god I don't want to lose him. I'm trying to be ok, with it, I'm trying to understand. my heart feels like it's breaking. but I feel like it would be worse if he accepted treatment that he did not want out of a sense of guilt or obligation to me. I hate cancer.