Sep 21, 2011 - 2:13 pm
Today I found out that my mother's Bone Metastasis has progressed. I have not told her as she doesn't understand english that well but I did tell my dad and we are devastated. My mom had stage IV Thyroid Cancer was caught late in the game because of a misdiagnosis and after a year, she got bone metastatis lesions on her hip. She had a hip replacement in May and kept complaining of so much pain on her left upper back side. We brought her for her bone scan this past Friday and today I got the results that she has lesions there as well and that her cancer has progressed. This is all I think about, I am sick to my stomach about it and try to hide it from my kids and husband. I am always sad and I can't get out of this feeling I have, like I'm in another planet or something. I don't know how to help her pain. Pain killers aren't working so now they are suggesting Bone injeciton to strengthen her bones and it helps reduce the pain. She is so tiny now and fragile - she was so outgoing. I am sad, I think about death way to often. She just called me as she told me did the doctor tell you anything and I told her no. This doctor was her Endocrinologist. This Monday we will go to her Oncologist and I know he will tell her and it will destroy her. A part of me is going with her. I'm 40 and cry for my mom. I love her so much, she has given the world to me and my sister. I don't want her to die. I hate cancer, I am sorry for everyone that has this awful disease. I have had counselling and really doesn't help because what they tell me is what I already know but can't listen. Please is anyone going through this with a parent whom they love and can't picture life without. I know everyone on this site is going through this but I don't know what to do. thank you for your time.