Sep 07, 2011 - 2:28 pm
I guess that I'm having one of those days, and I told myself who better to understand than you guys! I was diagnosed with kidney cancer when I was 46, almost two years ago. I had the kidney/tumor removed. Been following up every three months. Recently found a small lesion on my remaining kidney. Doctor plans to watch it, and will do an ultrasound in November. initially I wasn't okay with the waiting game, but have learned somewhat to deal with it.
With the exception of one close friend (who's had breast cancer twice), I feel like nobody really understands how hard it can be to wonder if the cancer is back. Or to not over analyze every ache and pain. Telling me it's nothing, or to have faith, everything will be just fine......gives me no comfort. I want to rip their heads off....kinda sorta. :)
Here's the pity pot part of my post! Seems like rarely people ask how my follow up visits are going. I know the world doesn't revolve around, and in fact I have never been the person that likes to be the center of attention. Are people afraid of what they might hear? Don't really care? Caught up in their own lives? I had amazing support when I was first diagnosed, and shortly there after, so I know those people are out there.
Thanks for listening.